Shonda Rhimes has been shocked by the positive attention she’s getting after losing 150 pounds — and she isn't exactly thrilled about it either.
Rhimes, 47, the acclaimed producer and creator of “Grey’s Anatomy” and “Scandal,” shared in her Shondaland newsletter that she lost the weight for health reasons, according to US Weekly. Weight loss and maintenance has been a process she hasn’t particularly enjoyed and continues to struggle with, she says, made all the more difficult by the attention she’s receiving.
“Women I barely knew gushed. And I mean GUSHED. Like I was holding-a-new-baby-gushed. Only there was no new baby. It was just me. In a dress. With makeup on and my hair all did, yes. But ... still the same me,” Rhimes wrote. “And men? They spoke to me. THEY SPOKE TO ME. Like stood still and had long conversations with me about things. It was disconcerting.”
Rhimes isn’t taking the attention as a compliment. Rather, she’s seeing it as a stark realization that her weight loss has made her “worthy” in the eyes of others.
“After I lost weight, I discovered that people found me valuable. Worthy of conversation. A person one could look at. A person one could compliment. A person one could admire. A person,” she shared.
Considering Shonda’s glittering career in the industry and her incredible list of accomplishments, it’s no wonder she’s slightly peeved that it took losing weight for her to get that kind of acknowledgement and attention.
Rhimes’s weight-loss journey began during her “Year of Yes,” which also became the title of the book she published in 2015, reports People.com. After struggling to buckle her seat belt on an airplane and risking her safety over the embarrassment of asking for a belt extender, Rhimes decided to say “yes” to losing weight as well.
In a 2015 interview, Rhimes said she felt great about her weight loss and “wants to stay in that space.” But feeling great about your health should never be misconstrued with feelings of worthiness.
“Being thinner doesn’t make you a different person,” she wrote in her newsletter. “It just makes you thinner.”